That time your husband offers to drive your son to therapy appts! I'm so excited though they both seem to also be excited... Even with my ADHD and Executive Dysfunction, I am wondering how they are going to get it all done, but I suppose it's their's to figure out. So tomorrow, even though most of us are running under the weather... or have a serious case of allergies, I am getting my hair done.
You know that you're a mom when your family is well aware that you will let it ride till your roots look like an intentional ombre hair style, so they get you a prepaid mother's day hair appt! lol!!! So, I will have it done tomorrow! For that I'm excited. Since it's prepaid, I guess I'll skip purple... maybe ;-)
But I definitely want to run the errands I never get to like the bank, the post office, office depot for faxing medical insurance things... Never mind that I really need to get a passport! Maybe Wednesday...
What will I miss most? Yoga probably... that or mother's group. I like therapeutic check ins with my sons people. Seriously... May be a real control thing, but it feels more like a contribution. Like I'm up to speed and doing all that I can. I for sure spend a good deal of my life sort of faking it till I make it. I DO NOT want this special needs parenting thing to be like this. Could be that I feel like I have something to prove to myself and maybe others, but I want to be seen as on top of it. Intelligent. if not intellectual. Beyond capable. Deep sigh.
Obviously even us moms have our issues. lol!
Really all I needed to do was hop on here and lament the fact that me, myself, and I will not be going to therapy day tomorrow. But in all actuality, I'm thrilled that my hubs gets to. I hope he sees what's going on! That he is thrilled. That he gets to check in with Dan Pruitt and feels a connection, some help. I'm praying it is priceless...
Monday, May 22, 2017
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Not Feeling it...
Adulting is not all it's cracked up to be. I need to remember that when I watch my kid melting into a puddle on the floor over minute things. What I am expecting is a more "adult" type response... and I am also not always up for that as a task! Today is one of those examples.
In my defense, I have adulted quite well today. I have a neuro child or 2 and the 2 of them that struggle the most both seem to be struggling today. One more than the other. And I have tried to be reasonable and fairly calm with a smidge of practicality and logical challenge mixed in just for perspective. But today, even more than usual, I HAD to get things done. In fact, I still have to get things done--half the reason that I am here in blog land trying to center my spirit a bit before I "go back to work".
But it is 4:12pm. Dinner is in the crockpot and the kids are watching a movie. It is oddly quiet and in the quiet stillness is when my body has a moment to rest. This is when the wave of exhaustion usually washes over me in warmth and strength, sapping what little energy I have left! Today is no exception. But there is that bit of angst still smoldering low and hushed within. When I walk into my Jewelry show tonight, I want to be rid of that monkey. There is no good reason to be anxious... but mom guilt comes on in this form when the days creep by in difficulty and stretching.
But I am more than capable of handling what comes next. I firmly said no this morning to yet another activity. I can't say no to my child's birthday tomorrow lol, but I did try to make it the easiest as possible. I have a sitter, so I ideally don't have to put small ones to bed. And then I will have to decide which kind of adult I want to be for the rest of the night. The one that drinks wine and falls asleep or the one who drinks water so she can read and not fall asleep! And I get to choose!
Enough patting myself on the back for this pep talk. On to caffeine and a new outfit. The older crowds might not appreciate my world market / gypsy style thing i've got going today! 😂😂😂😂😂
In my defense, I have adulted quite well today. I have a neuro child or 2 and the 2 of them that struggle the most both seem to be struggling today. One more than the other. And I have tried to be reasonable and fairly calm with a smidge of practicality and logical challenge mixed in just for perspective. But today, even more than usual, I HAD to get things done. In fact, I still have to get things done--half the reason that I am here in blog land trying to center my spirit a bit before I "go back to work".
But it is 4:12pm. Dinner is in the crockpot and the kids are watching a movie. It is oddly quiet and in the quiet stillness is when my body has a moment to rest. This is when the wave of exhaustion usually washes over me in warmth and strength, sapping what little energy I have left! Today is no exception. But there is that bit of angst still smoldering low and hushed within. When I walk into my Jewelry show tonight, I want to be rid of that monkey. There is no good reason to be anxious... but mom guilt comes on in this form when the days creep by in difficulty and stretching.
But I am more than capable of handling what comes next. I firmly said no this morning to yet another activity. I can't say no to my child's birthday tomorrow lol, but I did try to make it the easiest as possible. I have a sitter, so I ideally don't have to put small ones to bed. And then I will have to decide which kind of adult I want to be for the rest of the night. The one that drinks wine and falls asleep or the one who drinks water so she can read and not fall asleep! And I get to choose!
Enough patting myself on the back for this pep talk. On to caffeine and a new outfit. The older crowds might not appreciate my world market / gypsy style thing i've got going today! 😂😂😂😂😂
Friday, May 12, 2017
Yogi
I have fallen in love. It IS the oddest thing and then it isn't and I'll unpack that for you.
I have fallen in love with yoga. When my son is finishing up one of his therapies on most Tuesdays, I attend a yoga class at the clinic. I have done a very tiny smidge of yoga up until this point. But I now attend weekly and have gotten my own mat and block for my own space at home. I have only embarked on my youtube living room yoga 2 times so far, but I am learning and have to begin somewhere.
It is peaceful. It allows for great release physically and mentally and emotionally. Sometimes I do it just to bring my inner self back into a center space. You ever feel like your mood is totally off? like you just can't get a handle on where you are and getting yourself back to where you should be? Sounds whacky I know, but yoga helps!!! Truly. I am a Christ follower, and so I feel as though I much put this out there that this is a great and healthy practice for a Christ follower! I say that because I know that there are some that are concerned about what the poses mean and who you are meditating upon... You are a free human! You are capable of meditating on whatever or whomever you choose and one of the things I love MOST is meeting quietly with God in that still place. I mostly try to completely ease and clear my mind, but when there is a need to reach out to find strength, I set my mind on scripture. Totally beautiful. Totally gives me the strength and stamina to hold long difficult poses.
I love yoga!
I started reading up and researching it... that is for another post, but I love that yoga is not just exercise, but a lifestyle of centered healthy choices for your mind and body. So I suppose I'm on my yogi journey!
And here is why I think this is not all that surprising in the end. When I was much younger, I danced. I mean I lost myself in the art AND the discipline of ballet! I loved challenging both my mind, my art, and my body to do difficult yet beautiful things!! This is not that different! Hopefully, less damaging to my knees, but definitely not that different. There is a bit of a circle, a coming back to your love thing going on here that makes me thrilled!
There. That's all I've got for today! But seriously... if you need some focus, some stretching, some peace... try it. You will not regret it!
I have fallen in love with yoga. When my son is finishing up one of his therapies on most Tuesdays, I attend a yoga class at the clinic. I have done a very tiny smidge of yoga up until this point. But I now attend weekly and have gotten my own mat and block for my own space at home. I have only embarked on my youtube living room yoga 2 times so far, but I am learning and have to begin somewhere.
It is peaceful. It allows for great release physically and mentally and emotionally. Sometimes I do it just to bring my inner self back into a center space. You ever feel like your mood is totally off? like you just can't get a handle on where you are and getting yourself back to where you should be? Sounds whacky I know, but yoga helps!!! Truly. I am a Christ follower, and so I feel as though I much put this out there that this is a great and healthy practice for a Christ follower! I say that because I know that there are some that are concerned about what the poses mean and who you are meditating upon... You are a free human! You are capable of meditating on whatever or whomever you choose and one of the things I love MOST is meeting quietly with God in that still place. I mostly try to completely ease and clear my mind, but when there is a need to reach out to find strength, I set my mind on scripture. Totally beautiful. Totally gives me the strength and stamina to hold long difficult poses.
I love yoga!
I started reading up and researching it... that is for another post, but I love that yoga is not just exercise, but a lifestyle of centered healthy choices for your mind and body. So I suppose I'm on my yogi journey!
And here is why I think this is not all that surprising in the end. When I was much younger, I danced. I mean I lost myself in the art AND the discipline of ballet! I loved challenging both my mind, my art, and my body to do difficult yet beautiful things!! This is not that different! Hopefully, less damaging to my knees, but definitely not that different. There is a bit of a circle, a coming back to your love thing going on here that makes me thrilled!
There. That's all I've got for today! But seriously... if you need some focus, some stretching, some peace... try it. You will not regret it!
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