Adulting is not all it's cracked up to be. I need to remember that when I watch my kid melting into a puddle on the floor over minute things. What I am expecting is a more "adult" type response... and I am also not always up for that as a task! Today is one of those examples.
In my defense, I have adulted quite well today. I have a neuro child or 2 and the 2 of them that struggle the most both seem to be struggling today. One more than the other. And I have tried to be reasonable and fairly calm with a smidge of practicality and logical challenge mixed in just for perspective. But today, even more than usual, I HAD to get things done. In fact, I still have to get things done--half the reason that I am here in blog land trying to center my spirit a bit before I "go back to work".
But it is 4:12pm. Dinner is in the crockpot and the kids are watching a movie. It is oddly quiet and in the quiet stillness is when my body has a moment to rest. This is when the wave of exhaustion usually washes over me in warmth and strength, sapping what little energy I have left! Today is no exception. But there is that bit of angst still smoldering low and hushed within. When I walk into my Jewelry show tonight, I want to be rid of that monkey. There is no good reason to be anxious... but mom guilt comes on in this form when the days creep by in difficulty and stretching.
But I am more than capable of handling what comes next. I firmly said no this morning to yet another activity. I can't say no to my child's birthday tomorrow lol, but I did try to make it the easiest as possible. I have a sitter, so I ideally don't have to put small ones to bed. And then I will have to decide which kind of adult I want to be for the rest of the night. The one that drinks wine and falls asleep or the one who drinks water so she can read and not fall asleep! And I get to choose!
Enough patting myself on the back for this pep talk. On to caffeine and a new outfit. The older crowds might not appreciate my world market / gypsy style thing i've got going today! 😂😂😂😂😂
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